Thursday, May 8, 2008
Couldn't Have Said It Better Myself
So I think it's pretty apparent what has taken up the bulk of my thoughts lately. I won't even apologize for it- it's been awhile since I allowed myself some honest to God butterflies. Doesn't mean I'm not still working through my usual nonsense:
After a year and a half as enthusiastic but limited edition "friends" and now starting to make more public/sober attachments, I find myself in a position I haven't been in with anyone else in years. I think I want him to be my boyfriend.
I'm alright with the slow boat to this, it's giving me time to figure the logistics out, but at the end of the day when I ask myself what I want (TKTC loves this question), the answer is him.
And I'm being reckless and probably impulsive and I'm not considering the consequences of anything. But that doesn't seem to change the answer and I'd rather get hurt and feel something than jump off now and miss it. Obviously I haven't mentioned a single word of this to him. I think I've started to age backwards mentally. I used to be 42 and now I'm 19.
With that in mind, I came across a FANTASTIC essay done for a NYT contest. Love according to college students. It's love according to me too, I could have written this but not nearly as well. Please God, make the jump. It is worth every second of your reading time.